Did you ask Him for submission?
Did you plead for it in prayer,
And such suffering great o’ertook you
That you thought He didn’t care?
Ah, my dear, He heard and answered
That true prayer with bitter tear;
For we only learn obedience
By things we suffer here.
(This is stanza 2 of a poem by Josephine Hope Westervelt found in the book Streams in the Desert. I will post addition stanzas in the days to come.)
Did you ask the Lord for patience?
Did you plead for it in prayer,
Then tribulations great befell you,
And you thought He didn’t care?
O, my child, He heard and answered,
Answered full your prayer;
“Tribulations worketh patience,”
That’s the gem you longed to wear.
(This is stanza 1 of a poem by Josephine Hope Westervelt found in the book Streams in the Desert. I will post addition stanzas in the days to come.)
The first trimester of seventh grade (yikes!) is in the books and we are off to a great start. I even think my kids might be starting to appreciate each other a little bit.
Yesterday was amazing. The post about my health situation got passed around a little bit and I heard from people representing most every season of my life–even the elementary school I attended in a different state. It really was a blessing to connect with so many different people from so many different places and so many different times in my life. I think one lesson from this experience has been that technology has made it possible for us to positively impact the lives of more people than we realize–even those we may have primarily known in another time and another place. This has challenged me to consider how I can be a greater source for good in this whole world of social media.
“Nevertheless, when exercised with a pure heart and a right motive, fasting may provide us with a key to unlock doors where other keys have failed; a window opening up new horizons in the unseen world; a spiritual weapon of God’s providing, ‘mighty, to the pulling down of strongholds’ (8).”
“There is concern in the hearts of many for the recovery of apostolic power. But how can we recover apostolic power while neglecting apostolic practice? How can we expect the power to flow if we do not prepare the channels? Fasting is a God-appointed means for the flowing of His grace and power that we can afford to neglect no longer (25-26).”
“It will be a fasting and praying Church that will hear the thrilling cry, ‘Behold, the Bridegroom!’ Tears shall then be wiped away, and the fast be followed by the feast at the marriage supper of the Lamb (26).”
Yesterday we were denied insurance approval for the IVIG treatments for my CIDP. For those who are just joining the conversation, a few months ago I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder where my immune system attacks the coating of my nerves. My symptoms primarily involve a weird sensation of numbness/tingling in my feet, hands, arms, and legs. In addition, on any given day I have random, seemingly inexplicable aches, pains, or sensations. I just don’t feel good. It has radically changed my active lifestyle. I am a different person than I was a year ago–which I believe is precisely God’s plan in all of this.
College and seminary shaped my mind for ministry. But they did little, if anything to shape my heart. The past year has been a seminary of a different kind, one more important than the first. It is the seminary of brokenness where the school motto is “Sanctification Through Suffering.” I am presently enrolled in classes such as Faith 101, Hearing God 101, Peace 101, Compassion 101, and Eternal Perspective 101. Again, there were no such classes at Grand Rapids Baptist Seminary (a good place for theological training, by the way).
Though I long to have physical relief, there is a part of me that is glad the insurance didn’t come through this time. I know that class is still in session. I have not yet learned all that God has for me in this season. The grade for my course work is “Incomplete.” I am not yet the man or leader that God intends me to be. I pray that day comes soon. I also pray that the solution to my situation is such that it can only be attributed to God.
I am humbled by the number of people who are praying for me. I know that God is doing something profound in my life. Thank you for being an integral part of that.
(From the December Oakleaves Newsletter)
Is there anything more exciting than to be used by God to lead someone to salvation through faith in Jesus Christ? Seriously. What a privilege to be an agent of grace in changing someone’s eternity. What could be better than that? What could be more powerful? More fulfilling? More honoring to the God who saved you?
When was the last time you personally experienced this? When was the last time our church family experienced this?
Let’s be straight up honest with each other—we are long overdue to celebrate a harvest of conversion baptisms. And while salvation is ultimately a work of new birth orchestrated by God, He has chosen us to be the midwives. We are God’s chosen instruments. We are His messengers. Are we communicating the message to the dying or preaching to the choir?
I believe that 2012 could be, should be, and will be a year of evangelism for this congregation. But it won’t happen just because I said so. It will happen when we fall on our faces before God and ask Him to break our hearts for the lost. It will happen when we allow ourselves to carry burdens of intercession for them. It will happen when we realize that living moral lives and building relationships is not enough. It will happen when we decide it is more important to take the risk of sharing our faith than it is to be liked. It will happen when we step out in faith and trust that God will meet us there and He will ultimately do the work of transforming lives.
Who will be the first conversion baptism that we celebrate in 2012? Your family member? Your friend? Your neighbor? What a joy that would be. What price are you willing to pay?
Join me in doing more than talking about evangelism in 2012. Join me in taking some bold risks of faith. Throughout the year we will make a variety of tools available to help you in sharing your faith. But no evangelism tool is a substitute for your testimony and your obedience in sharing your faith. Pray for me as I pray for you. Let’s celebrate the harvest together.
When I think back to the profound ways God has provided for us at First Baptist in Ojai, near the top of the list is Zac and Jess Cannon. On a Sunday morning not long after we started ministry here, the church phone rang and I was greeted by what sounded like English but was really Virginian. Zac dispensed with pleasantries and got right down to asking doctrinal questions: “What do you believe about…” I must have answered mostly correctly, because they attended the worship service that day and have been a fixture in our church family ever since.
Since their arrival, God has changed Zac’s path from movies to ministry. Rather than merely telling stories, Zac is communicating The Story. Zac has a special ability to go beyond entertaining students to actually discipling them. He and Jess are having a profound impact on the lives of my children. I thank God for that day the church phone rang. I am blessed to call him teammate and friend.
With My Own Eyes 