Yesterday we were denied insurance approval for the IVIG treatments for my CIDP. For those who are just joining the conversation, a few months ago I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder where my immune system attacks the coating of my nerves. My symptoms primarily involve a weird sensation of numbness/tingling in my feet, hands, arms, and legs. In addition, on any given day I have random, seemingly inexplicable aches, pains, or sensations. I just don’t feel good. It has radically changed my active lifestyle. I am a different person than I was a year ago–which I believe is precisely God’s plan in all of this.
College and seminary shaped my mind for ministry. But they did little, if anything to shape my heart. The past year has been a seminary of a different kind, one more important than the first. It is the seminary of brokenness where the school motto is “Sanctification Through Suffering.” I am presently enrolled in classes such as Faith 101, Hearing God 101, Peace 101, Compassion 101, and Eternal Perspective 101. Again, there were no such classes at Grand Rapids Baptist Seminary (a good place for theological training, by the way).
Though I long to have physical relief, there is a part of me that is glad the insurance didn’t come through this time. I know that class is still in session. I have not yet learned all that God has for me in this season. The grade for my course work is “Incomplete.” I am not yet the man or leader that God intends me to be. I pray that day comes soon. I also pray that the solution to my situation is such that it can only be attributed to God.
I am humbled by the number of people who are praying for me. I know that God is doing something profound in my life. Thank you for being an integral part of that.
Like the Apostle Paul, I want more than anything to know Christ (Phil. 3:10). I do not want to simply know about Him. I want to know Him-- personally, intimately, and experientially. It is not enough for me to hear about Him. I want to see Him with my own eyes.
With My Own Eyes 
Patsy Fekete
December 6, 2011 at 11:41 am
Praying for you here, Chad! Love, the Fekete family
Joanne walker
December 6, 2011 at 1:24 pm
Very profoundly put Chad. “What Satan means for evil in your life (and all of our lives), God means for good. You are such an inspiration to all of us in dealing with suffering. Keep the faith. God is not finished. Still praying for victory in Jesus’s Name!
Cya Stambaugh
December 6, 2011 at 1:41 pm
God knows every need of your heart, Chad. When the way is long, and you can’t see the path, when you feel abandoned and all but forgotten, hang on…the Lord is near. Hebrews 13:5. Lifting you up in prayer.
Blessings,
Cya
Hope
December 6, 2011 at 4:32 pm
Don’t give up Chad insurances are so hard to deal with sometimes, but keep trying I’ve been there and lots of times it takes several try’s before they finally come through. Don’t let Satan have control over this issue, God will hold you tightly in his arms…You and your family are in my prayers!
Hope
Rhonda
December 6, 2011 at 8:47 pm
Lord thank you for blessing our church and community with Chad! He is an awesome example of a Godly man! All my children and I love to hear him speak and have an easy time understanding when he is teaching us. We are so thankful for him.
Now with his body having pain, he is also an awesome example of a man or God!
Please Lord Jesus, if it be your will, please bring healing to his body! How I pray these treatments would be able to be paid for either by insurance or your way Lord.
we all love you Chad and will continue to pray for a miracle or complete healing of your body! RHONDA and my girls
Rh
Please continue to speak to his heart and draw him close to you Loving Lord.
Glenn Small
December 6, 2011 at 11:58 pm
We will be praying for you Chad God Bless.
Mike Stambaugh
December 7, 2011 at 5:30 am
Chad, as I was reading your entry, two verses came to me that I am praying, not only for you, but for myself as well.
2 Cor. 12:8-10 (ESV)
Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. [9] But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. [10] For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
May you find the grace of Christ sufficient for you and find His power perfected in your weakness. May you learn and find contentment in those things that make you weak so that you can experience the fullness of Christ’s strength.
Philip. 3:10 (ESV)
…that I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death…
May you come to know Him as I know that you desire to; with all your heart, soul, mind and strength. Love you friend,
Mike
chadzaucha
December 7, 2011 at 12:39 pm
Patsy, I miss the Feketes!
Joanne, Victory is inevitable.
Cya, He is “Immanuel”, “God with us”
Hope, yes, we will continue to work the process and choose to see God.
Rhonda, thanks for your awesome encouragement.
Glenn, Hey! Thanks for your prayers. Great to hear from you.
Mike, Amen. It’s all there in the Word, isn’t it.
Amy Yazel (Moyer)
December 7, 2011 at 2:47 pm
Hi Chad! It is Amy Yazel (Moyer)… I was so bummed when you moved away because that meant I would be the last to graduate. A special Thank You to Jeri Binkley for posting this to FB. I remember the fun times we had in Mrs. Wood’s History class in 8th grade. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Take care and keep in touch.
Amy
Susie powers
December 7, 2011 at 4:07 pm
Chad ,
i am sorry that you where denied the IVIG treatment’s .as you said it is God’s plan and timing !
I can truly say I know what you are going threw !!! My CDIP is really taking over my body there’s day’s .my nerves are waking up so i have tremendous pain and spasms in my hands :0 .
yet through all of this i have found joy and peace in my spirit like never before. I to know has a plan for me . and i truly am trusting in him for complete healing and restoration in my body ,mind…
God will give you your treatment’s when it is your time ❤ amen ❤ amen <3amen<3
Susie Q